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Since I have no more money left in my bank account, my breakfast, lunch and dinner are extremely simple. I eat just to survive nowadays. I live like a monk, eating whatever you have.
You may wonder why I have no more money left in my bank account. As I mentioned before in my previous blogs that I believe they may blacklist me as well. Because I receive job rejections for every job I apply for, including jobs within the Film & TV industry since I want to be an actress, writer and filmmaker. But this career path also appears to have been obstructed. I have been working tirelessly trying to pursue my acting, writing and directing career for decades but never get anywhere. Therefore, it’s a clear sign of blacklisting.
Today, I will continue to work on my Particulars of Claim to initiate court proceedings and apply for injunctions as soon as possible. I can’t take it anymore. They also seem to distract me as much as they can by relentlessly harassing, monitoring every move I make both online and offline, bullying, humiliating, mocking, and intimidating me on a daily basis to overwhelm me and to cause me so much distress, so that I may just give up. It’s also very challenging for me to do this alone when I don’t have a solicitor to help me with this. But what can I do. I must do everything myself for now.
Today, I am having instant noodles for dinner as usual. Because I have less than £10 left in my bank account since I have no job, which I believe due to blacklisting, reputational sabotage, or economic sanction. I must therefore be careful not to spend any money at all. Well, I have no money to spend anyway.
It’s truly shocking that they apparently force me into poverty, and at the same time allegedly steal my ideas and then leak / sell to various writers, producers, filmmakers, film production and distribution companies, advertisement agencies, and so on, to create content and make films based on my creative works, my life and my private information without me receiving anything for it, plus I have to live in poverty and cannot pursue my dream career as an actress, writer and filmmaker either due to the alleged blacklisting.
Those who write and make films seemingly based on my stolen ideas, creative works, my private and confidential information without my consent or knowledge even received recognitions, awards, and more opportunities in the Film & TV industry.
But I, the original creator, have been prevented from using my own creative works to pursue my career as a writer and filmmaker — work that could have brought me income, recognition, awards, and further opportunities. At the same time, they appear to manipulate or pressure me into taking low-paid jobs such as cleaning, caretaking, or domestic work — a clear act of discrimination and humiliation. Moreover, my access to legal representation has also been obstructed, making it even more difficult to protect my rights and hold those responsible for the infringements to account.
In recent months, I have noticed a disturbing trend — numerous films, television shows, and even commercials appear to be making direct or indirect references to my private life, my personal experiences, and even my creative works. What is even more troubling is that this pattern coincides with the illegal surveillance and data theft I have been subjected to for years. It is now becoming clear that this is not a coincidence but a coordinated, industrial-scale misuse of my private information and creative property.
Thus, what I am facing is not just an invasion of privacy or the theft of creative works — it is a coordinated system of control designed to suppress, isolate, and exploit me on every possible level. While my private information and creative works are being illegally shared, filmed, and commercialised by others, I am simultaneously being blacklisted from all legitimate opportunities that could allow me to rebuild my life or protect my rights.
No matter how many jobs I apply for — regardless of my qualifications or experience — my applications are repeatedly rejected. This is not a coincidence. It appears to be part of a broader pattern of systemic blacklisting and interference aimed at keeping me financially trapped and professionally silenced. By blocking every path to stable employment and income, those responsible ensure I cannot afford legal representation or take timely legal action against them.
The harm caused by this is not merely financial — it is multiplied tenfold, if not more. Every rejection compounds the impact of their exploitation, giving them more time to continue their illegal practices unchecked. While they profit from my stolen ideas, private information, and creative works, I am deliberately kept at a disadvantage, unable to defend myself or pursue my own artistic career.
As an aspiring writer and filmmaker, I have written scripts, story concepts, original plots, treatments, and other creative materials — the foundations of what could have been a fulfilling and sustainable creative career.
I should be able to write freely, publish my work, and develop my stories into films of my own. But how can I do that when everything I write is constantly monitored, stolen, and distributed without my consent? I now live in a constant state of fear — afraid to create, afraid to share, afraid even to dream — because everything I produce is taken from me and turned into profit for others.
This is not only a violation of my privacy and intellectual property — it is a systematic campaign to erase my agency and ownership over my own life and creativity. They have weaponised surveillance, blacklisting, obstruction of justice, and even death threats, to keep me powerless while exploiting everything that belongs to me. It is a cruel, calculated cycle: by keeping me unemployed, unrepresented, and silenced, they ensure that their exploitation continues under the radar.
This is not justice. This is not freedom. This is a deliberate and ongoing effort to profit from my pain while ensuring I am powerless to fight back. And that is precisely why I must continue to speak out — to expose what they are doing and reclaim my voice from those who have tried to erase it.
Therefore, I will not remain silent. Exposing this pattern is the first step towards reclaiming my voice — and holding those responsible to account for the industrial-scale theft, harassment, and blacklisting that have stolen years of my life and the future I rightfully deserve.
