I finally clean up my studio today. But not quite. I just clean the bathroom. I don’t want to spend too much time cleaning when I can wash half of it then another half I will do it tomorrow instead, so that I can spend the rest of the day to write 10 more pages. So today, I only scrub the bathroom. Tomorrow, I will hoover the studio and polish the kitchen as well. Then, I’m all set! There’s not much to clean in my studio, actually. So, it is good for me when I don’t have to wipe a huge apartment or house. But if I did live in a big apartment or house it would mean I could afford a maid. Although I live in a studio, but it does have everything as a normal apartment has: A living room with a wall bed, a terrace, a bathroom, an open kitchen, for instance. So, it is easy to manage for a single person like me. And it is in a quiet place far from traffic and all the noises. Everything is just perfect for me for the time being.
Just finished cleaning my bathroom.
I began to work on my drama screenplay as soon as I got up. It’s getting more entertaining now. I have now started on part 2 of Act 2, which is more exciting than part 1. In fact, the whole script is gradually getting more and more thrilling toward the end. So, it’s gonna be a total roller-coaster ride. I promise! I really want to finish the script asap. Because, I have a good feeling that it’s going to be good and unique. But, I have lots to do this week still. I have to go out of the door in a minute. Then when I get home I want to tidy up my studio. I hadn’t been home much for the past 2-3 weeks. And the days I was home, I spent on working on my screenplay. Every day and every minute counts. But after my studio is clean, I will continue to work on my screenplay straight away. Today is only Wednesday. So hopefully, I will be able to complete the script this week. I must do whatever I can to finish it asap. Because, this screenplay will be an important work that will, perhaps, launch my career as a writer & director as well – if I’m gonna make the movie myself from my script. That’s why I really pour my heart & soul into it. Fingers crossed!
Time for me to take time off. I have been working on my screenplay all day long. I have written to around page 50 now. I haven’t got that far with it as expected. Because, I have a bad habit of stopping and analysing each scene which slows down my work flow. So I have to refrain myself from doing that. I have to concentrate on making it to the end first – no matter what. Then I can always come back and revise it. Now, I will take a break and see a good movie. After I finish watching a movie, I will continue to work on my script. I have my ice cream ready for the movie. I hope, I may be able to write 10 more pages tonight. Then, I will have written 60 pages so far. And that’s about halfway already. It depends on how long I want my screenplay to be – about 100 or 120 pages? I just write and write. So, my script may seem boring now. It’s not that entertaining. And that’s the purpose of it. I just want to finish it first. I don’t care how uninteresting or absurd it may be. Making it to the end is my main goal for the time being. So, I don’t care about other elements for now. I just want to be able to type FADE OUT asap!
I love chocolate ice cream.
I have lots to catch up today because I had been busy for the past 3 weeks or something like that, so today is Monday I suddenly have a lot to do. I had even had 3 different meetings today already. I just got home and had my late lunch. And my home looks quite messy. Because, I only came home to sleep for the past 2-3 weeks. I want to clean my studio today. But I’m too tired for that now. I will spend the rest of the day working on my screenplay. Tomorrow, I will clean my studio.
I wanted to write to page 50 or so yesterday. But I was too tired to continue. But I made it to page 40 which is still good. Today, I will see how many pages I can write. But at least, if I could make it to the middle of my script that would be good. My drama screenplay is looking good so far. Therefore, I want to finish the whole script as fast as I can because I know it’s going to be a good screenplay.
And if I couldn’t sell it or find a producer for it I would, definitely, make the movie myself and become a producer myself as well. So again, I write, produce, direct, and play one of the main characters, too. The same as my first short action/drama/romance film Instant Risk which I wrote, produced, directed, shot, edited, and played the lead actress as well. I may even edit the movie myself again this time. But I don’t want to think about that too much right now. Just one thing at a time.
I also plan to make a short film soon. And I will take a scene from my drama screenplay for my short film. So, if I decide to turn my drama script into a movie myself I can use the short film to pitch for funding. And this time, I will hire a DOP to shoot the film for me. I may edit the film myself, though. It’s going to be an exciting short drama film. Because, the feature-length screenplay is good.
I try to keep myself away from people that thrive on schadenfreude at all costs, which is one of the things that keeps me being positive and outgoing at all time. So, it does help. Being around negative people all the time can really have a bad impact on me. And I don’t want that no more. So, by staying away from negative people I feel so relief. And that the world is a beautiful place to live and everything is possible. I want to treat people with respect the way I want to be treated myself.
I have now written my screenplay to page 40. I need to write 10 more pages or something like that. Then, I will have finished part 1 of Act 2 of my script. When I focus more on writing without any distraction I tend to achieve what I want to achieve. Now, I need to take a little break, have some snack, then I am ready to continue to write 10 more pages. After that, I will go to bed. My mission is then accomplished for today.
I forgot my birthday is 27 January which was two weeks ago. Well, I didn’t really forget it. I just don’t, actually, celebrate my birthday. So, for me, every day is the same. This year looks promising for me. I think. First of all, I am determined to quit working as a background artiste for good. Second of all, I will start working hard to make my dreams as an actress, writer & director come true. So, for me, getting older means I have become more decisive, more hard working, more positive about my future, and just go for it.
Life is full of possibilities and surprises. One thing leads to another. You never know what’s in store for you. So I just have to enjoy life to the full and be optimistic. And everything will be ok. So, this year, I will do whatever I can to achieve my goals and forget about how difficult it will be. When I have reprogrammed my mind to think enthusiastically about my future I enjoy every step I take to reach my objectives. Every action I make to move myself closer to my goals is an adventure in itself. And I feel, I have moved forward – even if just a little.
Today, I continued to work on my feature-length drama screenplay since I stood up. And I am almost done with the first half of the script, which is about 50-60 pages. I will just write and write and try to make it to the end. I will see, if I will be able to type FADE OUT today. So, after this blog post, I will work non-stop to be able to achieve that. Even if it means I may have to work until the sun comes up.
Back home again. Tomorrow, I have to wake up even earlier than today. So, after this blog post I will go straight to bed. Then, when I have a day off I will continue to work on my feature-length drama screenplay. Last year, I had to put my feature-length sci-fi/horror screenplay on hold because I saw a drama script competition and thought I’d try my luck at winning it instead. Then, I can always go back and continue to work on my horror/sci-fi script. But then, I couldn’t meet a deadline and I’d already made an outline for it and more. So I have to complete the drama screenplay anyway. As soon as I finish it, I will right away continue to work on my horror/sci-fi screenplay. Because, sci-fi and action are the genres that I like the most. So if I didn’t want to win the drama screenplay contest I would have finished, or almost completed, my horror/sci-fi script already. So I am really looking forward to finalizing my drama screenplay, at long last. Then, I can go back and continue to work on my horror/sci-fi screenplay asap.
I just got home a while ago. I consider seeing a good film before taking a shower and go to bed. Or, I can take a shower now and then see if I feel like watching a movie after that or not. If not I will just go straight to bed after shower since I have to get up early tomorrow morning, more early than today. So, maybe it’s a good idea that I go to bed right after shower.
But, if I decided to see a good movie I might see Arrival (which I love it and I have seen it only once) or Annihilation (I have never seen it before and some say it’s similar to Arrival) or Aliens (this one I have seen many times already, but I can never get tired of seeing it again and again) or I might even see Blade Runner 2049 because I have seen the original one 2-3 times and love it! So, I might check the second one out. But it’s almost 3 hours long. I might watch something else tonight and see it another day instead when I don’t have to stand up early.
I think, it’s better I go take a shower now. Then I can make up my mind later what I want to do, afterwards.
I improvised an act not long ago. It was ok. It’s good to be able to watch back my performance how it went. It makes me feel more confident even if it’s a bad show because I can then see how I am on stage and use that knowledge to improve my acting skill accordingly. I wouldn’t say it’s a bad staging. Maybe I just don’t like it that much, compared to other presentations I have done. Anyway, by watching back how I appear I gain more insight in my acting ability. So from now on, I will study my own performances as much as I can if I really want to improve my acting. I want to take my acting career seriously. So anything I can do to refine my art I will do it. And that’s why I also go to acting and writing classes regularly, to always develop my expertise in both fields. I see every performance I have done, big or small, as a valuable experience to build up my talent. So, nothing goes to waste even if it’s a bad show.
I’m really happy with my script so far, even though I’m not completely finished writing it yet. But I just know, it will be a sensational screenplay. Hopefully. It just contains all the elements of a high concept screenplay. I think. Now, if I want to make the movie out of it myself I will have to look for a producer if I can’t be a producer myself – or just sell the script. But I’m pretty sure that I will make the movie out of it myself and play one of the main characters, not the protagonist. And I may become a producer as well. Just keep the budget as low as possible. Therefore when I write my screenplay I try to think about simple locations, props, and so on. One of the good things in making drama films, same with horror movies, is that you can get away with lots of things, especially location. In many horror and drama movies, you see almost only one location or just a few such as Night of The Living Dead, Manchester by the Sea. It’s that simple. When you have a good concept location doesn’t really matter, in my opinion. So, let’s see if I can create a good movie out of a few locations.