I have revised my drama script to page 20 today. I will not do more for today. I will continue with the assessment tomorrow for 10-20 more pages. Then, I will have rewritten about 40 pages so far. During the weekend, I will try to finish the rest which is about 60-80 pages left. So, 30 pages on Sat. and 30 pages on Sun. All together will be about 100 pages screenplay. Well, if I aim to have only 100 pages. If I want 120 pages manuscript, then I may have to do the rewrite about 40 pages on Sat. and 40 pages on Sun. as well. I think, it looks more manageable now when I break it down into small chunks for each day to complete it. 40 Pages each day is achievable since I already wrote the script. This is just to correct the grammar and add or subtract something. 3 More days, then my screenplay is completely done!
If I didn’t win any competitions, then I would make the movie myself. I am almost certain about that. Yes, I plan to send my drama screenplay to various contests. But since I want to, perhaps, make the movie myself, so it doesn’t matter that much if I win or not. The story is personal to me. I will therefore most likely to make the movie myself. I just want to send it to competitions, just to try because I have never sent a script to win a prize before. So, it could be interesting. I think it would be a good experience regardless. So why not? Then, in the meantime, I have time to run around and make my horror short “Blood Group O.”
After I have got the drama screenplay out of the way, I will start practising my film pitch for fund to make the feature film after the short film. This is going to be fun, pitching for fund. I have never done it before. So, I have to be well-prepared. But I have been talking about my film concept almost daily and to practically everybody I have met. So, hopefully, doing the pitching shouldn’t be that challenging for me 🙂
I don’t know what to eat for snack. So I just have onion rings and ice cream. I always have them in my freezer, just in case. They can come in handy in situation like this, when I work all day on my script and don’t feel like cooking. My freezer is not that big. So I can’t stock a lot of fast food. When you write constantly, you don’t want to spend too much time cooking. It can be time consuming. You will want to spend every minute of your precious time writing, and to complete your project as soon as possible. So, standing and preparing food in the kitchen for hours is not something I feel like doing for now. If I could save lots of time to work on my screenplay I would. Therefore, even though I love cooking, I don’t make food that often anymore, I buy takeaway, eat out, or eat fast food like this instead. I know it’s not healthy. But just for the time being. When my work is over (finishing the screenplay), I can start spending quality time cooking good food for myself again. Now I will continue to work on my drama screenplay. I really hope I can finish it today.
I love writing. As soon as I start writing again, I feel good. As I write, I imagine that the story comes to life, as if I watch the actual film before my eyes. If it feels real to me, then I can better write it entertainingly. I have a good feeling about this drama screenplay since every word, every scene, every character, and so on, are authentic or 90% of it because it is based on a true story. And I am so emotional when I write it because I know what happened. And that’s why I know it’s a good, unique, and original story that needs to be told. I therefore HAVE to finish it. I will do whatever I can to complete it. I can visualise it already as a movie. I think, it will be a good film to watch.
I have been searching for film crew all day long for my upcoming short horror film “Blood Group O.” I have made some progress. I think. All the hard work begins to pay off. You can only succeed if you are persistent and believe in what you do. Now most of the job is done, looking for film crew. I will continue to work on my drama screenplay tonight. I have also a drama script that needs to finish as well. I will try to work on it as much as I can tonight. Then, it’s out of the way. Then I can concentrate on making my short horror film once I have all cast & crew ready. Then, noting is in the way. So, it’s important that I complete my drama screenplay as soon as I can. I will see how much I can get it done tonight and tomorrow. I’m still in the process of getting all cast & crew together. So, I can’t start shooting the film yet anyway. I have therefore time to work on my drama screenplay in the meantime. I must then utilise the gap in between to a full extent by completing my drama screenplay. I do have lots of coffee to keep me awake at night, to work on my drama screenplay as much as I possibly can tonight. I wish, I had insomnia. Then, maybe I could finish my screenplay faster when I can’t sleep….hehe.
Below are 5 short horror films that I love and find them very inspiring:
I passed by The Royal Academy of Arts today and saw The Psycho house, I then had to take some photos of it and take some selfies with it as well. I am a fan of horror movies. And that’s why I want to make a horror movie myself. I can never forget the ending of Psycho. It’s so creepy. A car being pulled out of the swamp toward you. Isn’t that spine-chilling? And the famous shower scene. Who can forget that? After watching Psycho, taking a shower will never be the same. The Psycho also built on Sigmund Freud’s theory of id, ego and superego. But psychology is being used in most horror movies anyway. Often, the villains are insane for some reason or no reason at all – just pure evil.
I have been busy with lots of things lately, so I forgot that I have a few auditions coming up this week. I haven’t even practised the monologues, yet. But I still have some more days to practise the monologues. So I will start tomorrow. I’m not quite sure if I want to use my own monologues that I have written for my own screenplay, or just use the monologues from the films that I like? I think I will use the monologues from the movies that I like instead for now. I have an appointment tomorrow. But as soon as I’m home again, I will start practising and practising.
Sometimes, I just go to auditions and don’t really care if I will get selected or not. I just attend the audition for the sake of the audition. That’s pretty much it. I was used to getting too excited and had high expectation that they would choose me. But that rarely happened. So now, I calm more down and see it as an opportunity to act in front of casting directors – regardless if they will pick me or not. So now, I look forward to every audition without expecting too much and it seems to work really well. I feel more relaxed and perform more naturally since I don’t expect anything that much. Then, I don’t get too nervous. I get nervous if I really hope they will select me, which makes me focus more on the result rather than the performance itself. Now, I just attend the audition and be myself. That’s it.
I deleted my previous blog because I thought I didn’t have time to blog. I just wanted to focus on writing my screenplays. But I couldn’t stop writing blog anyway. I love writing. And it’s my way of expressing myself. So, I just have to keep blogging. I hope, from now on I won’t be deleting it again. It took me time to build audiences. Now, I have to start all over again. But, it’s ok. I like writing. I enjoy writing. I mainly write for myself. I feel like coming home when I start blogging again. It’s a fantastic feeling when you continue to do something you’re truly passionate about. And blogging is one of my top interests or hobbies. So, there’s no other way but to continue to do what I love the most.
I watched Suburbicon film about a few days ago and loved it! At first, I wasn’t interested in seeing it. A movie set in 50s suburban America didn’t appeal to me that much. But after browsing and browsing through lots of movies, I couldn’t find a film that I really wanted to watch, so I just tried to watch Suburbicon instead. Also because I like the Coen Brothers movies such as No Country for Old Men, The Big Lebowski. So I thought, I should give this movie a try. Their movies always share the same themes: Money, greed, and consequences. And Suburbicon was no exception. But it added one more sub-theme or subplot which was racism.
And they managed to weave the whole thing together. So it made sense. The subplot, racism, helped add something more exciting and fresh to the main plot. A new view or perspective for a change which addressed a long-standing social issue racism. It also helped the movie move past act 2 without sagging, which many new writers have problem with it. Me too. So, it’s cleverly written. Although it wasn’t that great, compared to many other movies they have made. But, it’s a good film to be inspired for aspiring writers & filmmakers like me, looking for an easy film in terms of story’s structure to study and learn from. And how to avoid boring act 2. After I have studied many films and screenplays, I think, I am not afraid of act 2 anymore. I think, I can handle it now.