I start my day with a simple breakfast, just fried eggs and toasts. Then, I have to go out of the door in a minute. I will be busy all day today, again. I may do everything tomorrow instead. Because, today, I feel like spending the whole day working on my screenplay. After a long time working on it, I just want to finish it asap! Then I can start looking for fund, cast & crew, locations, etc., to eventually begin to shoot the film.
According to the weather forecast, tomorrow seems like it will be the warmest day in UK after a long, long time. So, I may go out and do my things tomorrow instead. I have checked the weather for today, and it will be up to 14C around 2pm. But now, it just looks dull and cold when I see it from the inside. When I go out I will know how warm it is today. I have lots of things to do. Maybe, I will not postpone it to tomorrow anyway.
I love fried eggs. I like scrambled eggs, too, sometimes. But I don’t really make it that often. I don’t know why? Maybe, making fried eggs is more easy. I love cooking. Spending some quality time preparing good, delicious food for myself is one of the things I enjoy doing. I also like going to market, buying fresh produce for my cooking. When I have time I like to stroll through the market buying newly-harvested vegetables and fruits, but also fresh fish, seafood, meat, and the like. I’d rather buy fresh produce from a market than from a supermarket. It just makes you feel so connected to nature when you can feel and touch the raw materials, or, see them without nice packagings. And you walk around in an open space, in a market which everything is being laid out randomly, getting some fresh air at the same time. It just feels more relaxed.
As soon as I get up, I have to start my day with a cup of coffee right away. Then my day can begin, afterward. I like drinking tea as well. But not as often as coffee. Maybe just once in a while. But I only drink one cup of coffee a day. That’s it. If I drink more than that it’s likely that I will have a hard time falling asleep.
I have been busy lately. So I haven’t had a chance to complete my screenplay, as I have planned to finish it about a few days ago. I will try to finish it tonight. If not, then tomorrow. It’s only about 10 pages left anyway. And I still also have to spend a few more days or so to revise it. My script will then be completely finished this week. So, it doesn’t matter when I, actually, have written the last 10 pages. It will really be finalized this week anyway – both the first draft and the revision.
It’s quite likely that I’ll turn it into a movie myself. I just feel everything is possible, as long as I believe in myself. And I’ve always believed in myself. I’ve been to film school for the past 14 years, after all (working on set is my film school). So, I am very confident that I can do this. Anyway, I just have to try it. I will never know, it will be a success or a failure before I have tried it. I don’t like saying: I can’t do this, I can’t do that, I don’t have the skills to do it, and so on. Because, then you tend to do and think what you say to yourself.
I was about to buy wine today to celebrate my last day working on set as a background artiste about almost 2 weeks ago, and to start a new chapter of my life focusing on acting/speaking roles instead. Because, I forgot to celebrate it right after. But then, I try not to drink alcohol as long as I still work on my script. I can party next week instead when I also have finished my screenplay. Then I can celebrate everything at once.
Subsequently, I have rejected lots of works as a background artiste. I will wait tables to pay my rents and bills instead, or go back to work in fashion retail, or work as a temp. The latter will be more suitable for my situation since it will give me more flexibility to go to auditions, do acting jobs, work on my screenplays and filmmaking projects.
I like mystery/sci-fi movies. Something that questions about our existence on earth, past & future, and the like. Do we live in a parallel universe? Does time travel exist? Are we alone? And so on. It would take years and years to find the answers to that. Anyway, it is fun to be curious and search for the answers about something we may never discover the truth. And here’s a list of movies that reflect my curiosity:
- The Time Traveler’s Wife
- I Am Legend
- Blade Runner
- Close Encounters of the Third Kind
- The Fifth Element
- Mad Max: Fury Road
- Planet of the Apes
And the TV series “LOST” which I still don’t understand. But it’s many years ago that I saw it – just some of the episodes. I think I have to rewatch it 🙂
I love music and fashion, especially rock ‘n’ roll. So I dress according to the music I like which is rock music, of course. I like to combine second-hand and new clothes together, to create a unique look that truly expresses myself. So sometimes, I like going to Camden, Brick Lane, Portobello Road Market, and the like, to look for vintage clothing. But it’s not only vintage clothes I am looking for, also jewellery, furniture, knick-knacks, for instance. But the main items I like to buy from the flea markets are vintage clothes and jewels since I can wear them together. I don’t really go that much up in other things to decorate my studio. They will just stay there to collect dust.
Everything else are from TopShop, except the leopard jumper is vintage which I bought it just for £5. It’s one of my favorite items that I wear a lot.
And today since morning, the weather was like spring or summer already with some sunshine. And that’s why I began to think about summer fashion. I always love summertime which means it’s soon time for me to visit vintage markets around London. But, I am still waiting for winter. I want to see snow. I saw snow a few weeks ago. But, it’s just for one day. I think. And that was it. That’s winter here in UK. And the spring is just right around the corner. It’s good, though. Then I can wear beautiful spring or summer clothes – both bohemian and rock chick look.
I love this bag from TopShop.
I finally clean up my studio today. But not quite. I just clean the bathroom. I don’t want to spend too much time cleaning when I can wash half of it then another half I will do it tomorrow instead, so that I can spend the rest of the day to write 10 more pages. So today, I only scrub the bathroom. Tomorrow, I will hoover the studio and polish the kitchen as well. Then, I’m all set! There’s not much to clean in my studio, actually. So, it is good for me when I don’t have to wipe a huge apartment or house. But if I did live in a big apartment or house it would mean I could afford a maid. Although I live in a studio, but it does have everything as a normal apartment has: A living room with a wall bed, a terrace, a bathroom, an open kitchen, for instance. So, it is easy to manage for a single person like me. And it is in a quiet place far from traffic and all the noises. Everything is just perfect for me for the time being.
Just finished cleaning my bathroom.
Time for me to take time off. I have been working on my screenplay all day long. I have written to around page 50 now. I haven’t got that far with it as expected. Because, I have a bad habit of stopping and analysing each scene which slows down my work flow. So I have to refrain myself from doing that. I have to concentrate on making it to the end first – no matter what. Then I can always come back and revise it. Now, I will take a break and see a good movie. After I finish watching a movie, I will continue to work on my script. I have my ice cream ready for the movie. I hope, I may be able to write 10 more pages tonight. Then, I will have written 60 pages so far. And that’s about halfway already. It depends on how long I want my screenplay to be – about 100 or 120 pages? I just write and write. So, my script may seem boring now. It’s not that entertaining. And that’s the purpose of it. I just want to finish it first. I don’t care how uninteresting or absurd it may be. Making it to the end is my main goal for the time being. So, I don’t care about other elements for now. I just want to be able to type FADE OUT asap!
I love chocolate ice cream.
I just got home a while ago. I consider seeing a good film before taking a shower and go to bed. Or, I can take a shower now and then see if I feel like watching a movie after that or not. If not I will just go straight to bed after shower since I have to get up early tomorrow morning, more early than today. So, maybe it’s a good idea that I go to bed right after shower.
But, if I decided to see a good movie I might see Arrival (which I love it and I have seen it only once) or Annihilation (I have never seen it before and some say it’s similar to Arrival) or Aliens (this one I have seen many times already, but I can never get tired of seeing it again and again) or I might even see Blade Runner 2049 because I have seen the original one 2-3 times and love it! So, I might check the second one out. But it’s almost 3 hours long. I might watch something else tonight and see it another day instead when I don’t have to stand up early.
I think, it’s better I go take a shower now. Then I can make up my mind later what I want to do, afterwards.
I need to take a break from working on my screenplay and listen to music for a while, after having been working on my screenplay all day long . It’s looking good so far. I’m really happy with it. I try to write 20 more pages tonight. Then, I will have completed the first half of Act 2. I have been drinking lots of coffee all day. So I think, I may be able to produce 20 more pages tonight. If not I will just try to write as much as I can tonight. I don’t have to stand up early tomorrow morning. So I can go to bed as late as I want to.
Now the time is only about 10:30pm. I think, I can go to bed around 1am if I decide to write 20 more pages. That’s about 2.5 hours to write. I don’t know if it’s enough to write 20 pages? Anyway, I will try. The most tricky part is Act 2: How do you keep the entertainment alive throughout Act 2? I’m not worried about Act 3 that much because I already have the answer for Act 3 or have already written Act 3 – just roughly. But Act 2 is the longest part and the most difficult one. So, I have to focus more on it and make it as gripping as much as I can.
I have already made an outline for the whole screenplay. But still, I have to really come up with some exciting scenes that keep the readers turning pages throughout the script, especially Act 2. Otherwise, it will be a boring screenplay. And then when I send it out it may be used as a doorstop instead. Or even worse, it may be chucked in a bin after just the first page. Or even just after the first paragraph. So I really pour my heart & soul in Act 2, to create a harmony for the whole script.
Have you ever read a book or seen a film that seems exciting in the beginning, but then toward the middle of it your interest in continuing with it disappears? So, I try to avoid that. I want it to be captivating throughout. Some of the books that I couldn’t put them down till I finished reading them were The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo (I have only read it in Danish or Swedish. I have never read it in English), Angels & Demons, The Da Vinci Code, The Girl on The Train, for instance. So I try to achieve that, which would be excellent if I could do the same with my screenplay.
When I get up in the morning the first thing I do is to make a cup of coffee. When I have my coffee I feel so awake. I don’t need breakfast for now. Just the coffee. Then about an hour or two later, I will have my early meal. I feel like going out for a walk. Maybe I will walk to Wimbledon Village, which takes me about 15-20 minutes. But I will try to make a progress with my screenplay as much as I can today. So, every minute matters. I therefore must stay home and try to get my screenplay done as much as possible.
If I could not finish my script today but maybe I could at least manage to finish Act 2 that would be good. I have already made an outline to page 115 or something. So, the whole screenplay is already complete just in a draft form. Now, I will only have to add more details in each scene, which makes my writing job more easy. Because, now I know precisely where I am going. I think, it’s going to be a very good screenplay. I can just feel it.
Writing something from a true story that I know very well offers many advantages, because this feature-length drama screenplay I’m working on now is based on a true story, such as it makes me write my script faster without thinking much because I know the story inside out, there is a personal attachment to it which makes the script more personal and unique. And I want the readers and audiences to sense that.
Now I will continue to work on my script right away.
I woke up around 3am or 3:30am already today. But I also went to sleep early. I think, it was around 9pm I went to bed. So I think, I had slept enough. It’s getting colder and colder. But it looks sunny outside now. I make a traditional full English breakfast for myself today. I have been eating this type of breakfast for the past few weeks. Now, I’m also having it again this weekend. I can’t come up with a new variation of breakfast at the moment. So I just continue to eat what I normally eat. But also because I don’t eat much lunch and dinner. So I eat more for early meal instead, which balances my nutrition for the whole day anyway.
I try to finish my screenplay this weekend. So, I may not attend dancing class for today and martial arts class for tomorrow. I really want to finalize Act 2 today. And I will aim to complete the whole screenplay this weekend. That’s the idea. That’s why I will not go anywhere this weekend. Bringing my script to the end is my top priority at this moment. All other things can wait. Becoming a screenwriter is my alternative career as well. So, I have to take it seriously. And this screenplay I’m working on now will prove that if I can write a good script or not. So, I’m working hard to achieve that.
But I have also promised the others at the writing class that I will bring more of my screenplay to the class next time, so that they can read more of it and give me a new feedback. And I, actually, want further comments for the rest of my screenplay because it helps me improve my writing. Therefore, I work hard at the moment to accomplish my script as soon as possible since I have something to look forward to: New, constructive reactions. It certainly helps when there is a motivation that makes you want to push yourself toward your goal as fast as you can.